I have decided to write one letter to every one so I can tell the news once, with my whole heart, and not allow myself to become bogged down in lots of individual letters. I need to make sure I have the time to get my son to his tennis lesson, or whatever ... the normal stuff of being a mom ...

...for the first time in two years.
I am happy to announce that yesterday, after his 6-month scan, Dr. Wexler told us that Jordie is clear and that things look very good for him. There are no words to describe what this feels like. Some of you know it all too well, some of you are waiting to hear those words yourself someday.

Last night, I slept through the night and today I feel like a new person, ready to meet whatever new challenges life has in store for me and my son, Jordie. I hope they are less frightening and more joyful than the ones we have dealt with these last couple of years. We are ready for it!!

Late last night as I was walking out of his room, Jordie ran up to me and with a look of true childhood wonder, relaxation, and joy, my little 9-year old looked into my eyes with innocence and smiled a huge, beautiful smile. His eyes just shone with joy and he hugged me really close. He didn’t say a word, but those eyes had a look I have not seen for years—a look that most parents get all the time—just a pure childhood look of joy, without worry. I was dumbfounded when I saw it, so rare has it been of late. He's so happy; he is free. He is going to live and he knows it.

It really does not matter that his eye is drooping, or his face a little “funny” on one side, or that he has a keloid on his chest that is so ugly. There is life left in him that is the life of a child and I want to do everything I can to keep that energy going.

Thank you so much for all your encouragement and love during this tough time. I want to continue to be in touch with everyone as the years go on and as we all get to this place. I look forward to hearing from you.

Meanwhile, off to the pool.

Love,